Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Distance matters!

It is a bright sunny day in California, cant expect a snow fall can I? So let us live with the heat waves in summer with my Gogs on!

Like any other day had a fantastic time at office.

Trying to explain to my clients what he wants ;) towards what he feels he wants. Explaining my team members to align their thoughts of what client feels he wants, to what he wants. Ensuring the team does what client wants and not land up doing, what they think client wants.

Attending tons of calls where the outcome could be as productive in 5minutes, to meetings which run for hours and not sure what I have to take with me as an action item!
Sitting in a conference room on 23 floor with team and enjoying the view of Los Angeles down town after our meeting. Jumping from the seat to view the parade's that was happening on the hope street opposite to our clients office!

Eagerly waiting to fetch my lunch and yet worried, if the "India Jones" food truck to show up. Wow the frankies are delicious at this place.

Well and sending some final emails! to wind up and catch Metrolink train of San Bernardino to my home Covina.

Sitting in a quite car to catch some sleep and looking at this chinese dude with his gogs on to save himself from the distraction caused due to bright sun light, with samsung ear buds in his ears and a navy blue polo shirt. He has half opened eyes which are visibe from his gogs and a full opened mouth, where a small sized indian laddu can fit in!

And there is a pretty brown eyed girl making an eye contact whenever i raise my head, who is exactly sitting diagonally to me! She was in her own fantasy land, probably a college girl! She was reading the book "Burned", interesting title I thought and slowly went to sleep.

Out of this day of funny, eventful, productive journey, I reach my station where the conductor announces " Your next stop is Covina. If this is your destination please use handles while moving through the train and watch your step". I wake up in a hurry from my half sleep head and tried to move through the train without using handles and suddenly train jerks off! and i was about to break my face bumping into the floor steps but an elderly women held my hand, I smiled with embarrassment and said thanks. I exited the car and there they are these two families which catch my eye all the time.

A guy who waits to pick up his girl friend and they hug each other daily as if they were distanced for a life time.
I see same emotion daily in the girls eyes, but the guy is very composed! but he is expressive i felt, I hear him saying "How was your day honey" and they leave while talking.
I see this couple daily since past 8 months. I used to feel that gap! that i never felt in India! i always had someone waiting for me, wanting to hug me, just give a glass of water and say! you look so happy/tired and you should take a break! How lucky should we be, to be in

person for those whom we love and who love us.



While I was thinking, the cute little fellow barked at me, his name is Tom, he is the pet of two elderly couple, who come to pick up their grand daughter every Friday. I petted Tom once asking their permission, from then on it recognizes me.

At least the cute little tom makes me feel that I should catch train on time to be back home! It gives me that drive to make it on time to station to see Tom and that couple!

Sometimes I wonder what these emotions mean to humans? How they define,defy, our world and others.

I remembered one thing from my chemistry class, for two atoms to form a compound should be in vicinity and with a valency on each atom to exchange the electrons to make each other stable! One such interesting mechanism where this process of bonding happens is called Co-ordinate covalent bond.

There is something we can always learn from nature I felt, may be humans should know and realize how each other can complement their lives in a relationship! Then that bonding is not susceptible to any external factors.

Do you know how your partner complements your life?

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

I feel like a loser!

I was thinking seriously today! What am I doing with my life? I fought with life to pursuit happiness and now when I am supposed to be happy, I am getting sadder than ever because of my new relationship, looks like history is repeating itself. I was trying to understand if the problem is with me or the two girls I met so far. As they are acting so alike in spite of me giving my 100% in love.

Though, I know clearly two girls I met are totally different but i feel strongly sometimes they share same trends. One has inbuilt issues and one had it added explicitly after her bad experiences.

So I thought I will talk to my colleague Emily who sits adjacent to me at work, not that I could get some advice but I know she will give her examples and explain what she did in that place, so that I know my understanding of girls was right.
So I explained what I was going through!

I started, “I need to talk about my personal issue, is it ok if I do? She is like Haaree! (That’s how she calls me) you can always talk to me. I went along saying, I have known my girlfriend past 2years. She had a very bad past experience and so did I with our ex’s. We went along well initially but as we got closer and into each other’s personal space, we have been fighting for small things which did not make any sense!

As that is what, which panics me, and that incident of getting into arguments, I got over with from my past life, but she reminds me every moment she argues with me saying that. She/we could make her point and listen to my/our version and agree to end it there and talk something else. It never ends like that between us.

And we argue so much for that proving who is right and wrong! She tries to co relate, compare everything with her ex and she expects me to give that assurance it won’t happen! Or I have to prove that it is going to be different with me and we can work together! That slowly made me remember my past a several times too! Though I got over it.

I want to get married to her after she gets her stuff in place, but I never heard from her that she wants to get married & have a settled life with me, from her mouth not even once when we are talking, but I was expecting one day it would but the hope is getting faded slowly every time we fight.

I cannot be in a relationship which is short term that is not me, I invest my heart and blood to make it work in relation. If I don’t get back that assurance, it may not work with me.

Every time I had to assure, it is going to be alright with me, history won’t repeat with me! But it does not work, I fail all the time. And I do not understand if she feels that history is repeating for me too but I am trying to fix it!

I yell at her, that’s my weakness and I argue till I feel she gets my point especially when I know I am right. I think from third person’s perspective but I never felt, she ever thinks from a third person perspective nor she makes effort to ask right questions! She thinks from her perspective what is right and wrong and sticks to it”

And I ended. 

Emily started, may be you met two girls with same personality? But one who loves you and one does not ? Did you ever think this and she kept talking 

First thing, I am surprised to hear you argue! From what I have known you! I get how much stress you are going through! She asked is that why I left Tennessee all of sudden? I said yes, smiling.

She cleared one point very upfront, if you are arguing that means you do not value each other opinions! And you do not trust each other or love each other yet! But that’s me, that’s how I would look at.

Not just her, even you! And I am surprised to see two mature adults fighting on some most insignificant topics.

She went saying, I was in same situation earlier, I had a bad experiences in my past with my partners and it took so much time to get over with that, I used to date guys thinking I will find a better person than him, who can love me the way I am, but we never had arguments we just had differences and we discussed and we moved over when we know we cannot change, but I kept dating couple of other guys who I thought were perfect, but we landed up having differences anyways still and I felt the love was fading and we broke up.

After few relations I understood the value of those who loved me so much during my dating but I was selfish I could not love them back! All I did was take their love and expect them to change as per my terms as I never got over my past! Which was totally foolish of me.

In a relationship the partner should know how to love each other for what they are, if there are huge differences that cannot be sorted out, that can never be worked on and not work on long run. Until one is totally passive! which I dont think you both are!

But also know love is not just one thing, know how to forgive each other, we all fight for some silly stuff which never makes sense cause of our ego, selfishness and arrogant attitude at that time, but after sometime you feel, you fought for such a small thing. You should know how to forgive each other!

She continued, I realized that I never got rid of my first bad experience completely, so I always compared and gauged, the best people I met and expected them to fit to my criteria for happy and perfect love. Love is not limited to you, I understood this fact late! And it should be from both sides. 

If you are madly in love with each other, your differences never surface! Before love everything else looks so small.

You cannot persuade her before she gets her things straight, she needs to understand that. You cannot pour your things into her life which already is filled with past memories! She needs to empty it! If she tries to take it forcefully! it will only make things worse! Which I think is happening in your case.

Differences are bound to happen, now that does not mean you keep him/her hurting her/him and still expect the love to grow strong between you, as that does not make sense either, cause you have your own identity. And when you realize you hurt enough you avoid it! Just as you wanted to do, of stop talking to her forever! cause you lost hope this will work! Understand her what she wants, what she expects out of you! clearly.

I told her this is what we discussed in Tennessee and I came back! And she was like hmmm!!! 
And continued...

When you are fighting all time, long term it does not work, especially since you want to share rest of your life with her. But that’s just my opinion. I cannot invest so much time and effort for which I don’t think where it leads to and long relationship is a different ball game! You need more effort to make it work! And both of you should understand this.

And one last thing, as they say we do not realize the person’s value until he is gone but I say you always know the value but you are too blindfolded with your selfishness to let it go (this is what happened with me and my ex, she left me for money, her selfishness and arrogance)

When I asked how did you know, when you are ready to accept Joseph?
When I realized the truth I did not get over my past, I gave some time for myself I kept myself busy with work, met orphans to know what understanding, adjusting in love means. She got carried away here, she said we are so fools sometimes I feel, there are people who do not get love and we are one kind who ignore the people whom we love and run for betterment. Any ways I also got involved in masses and congregations at my church she continued.

That is when I met Joseph. I felt he loved me and accepted me what I am, that feeling is important, he was upfront and clear on what he wanted and expected out of me but he never forced me to fit all his expectations. But most importantly I got over my past! I was new individual when I met Joseph! Even though I feel this is something which repeated from my past I take it from a fresh look!
She asked me do you remember you mentioned you always start your day fresh! That’s how I started with Joseph!

I asked, do you fight now? Just like you did with your ex’s
We fight even now but it is not those harsh ones like my ex’s, we fight for turns in cooking, cleaning tom’s(Chihuahua) feces, going to their parents or mine on weekend! My friends felt we are made for each other! Reality is we made each other in love!

She closed the discussion with few questions.

How many times you met, so far, she asked!
I said 6 times (counted in my mind Vegas, California-Yosemite, Tennessee), she thought we met six times past 2 years. She smiled and said! How many times you fought may be 6 times where we both got hurt equally!

Are you sure she loves you, she asked?
I said she does! I feel it
Did you ever feel change in her attitude in spite of your inputs!
I do not know.  I just blindly love her, but I felt few times she does repeat same things, she knows I don’t like arguments and I go angry! But without her conscience she brings all these past examples which annoy me sometimes!


She took a big hmmm! And said I think you should just take your time Haareee! sometimes you feel you love each other! persons in madly love can never hurt each other!

Ask her what is her plan? What is she thinking about both of you down the line?

I only can talk as a third person here based on few in puts you gave! But you know what is best considering your situation and she ended.

One thing I understood, based on this, I need to know her plan! As I always wanted to! I don’t want to invest so much time and effort! Fighting with her to show I love her and make her feel things will be fantastic. Cause that is not going to happen in real world.

If we cannot figure out our differences, what life we shall have long term either marriage or no marriage is a different thing but there is no confidence carried in this relations this way.


It has been 6 months we have been talking to each other! And all I could remember strongly is how many time I got hurt (because of either of our foolishness) more than how many times I kissed her!

Getting back to India

I will be completing my 6 years in USA in a years time! I was thinking what should I write about my experiences, the culture, the life in so called land of free country!
But unknowingly we started to share our thoughts on this very same topic and he suggested this entry from one of the bloggers, which was very interesting.

I would follow my experiences with facts in upcoming blog!
Till then enjoy reading this blog

http://sangeethamenon.freeservers.com/indian/India-Experience.htm

Friday, July 22, 2016

Ethics

Being in love was magic I heard! But I never felt it. Cause every moment of life, I was always on the other side where I was only giving.

The only two persons in this world who loved back for what I am were my parents. I never thought no one could ever love me in return, I know I cannot expect my partner to love me as they do. Parents love and Partners love are always different. I knew the difference very well, but I never felt it till one day!

That day is today! 22 of July 2016.

To be honest, I do not know how do I start, or If i can complete this blog. As I was never so happy!!! And my eyes are wet.
I felt like being with her that very moment! Hug her, kiss her and cuddle and sleep by her, looking at her the way I do, for the entire weekend, but this distance !!! ufff!!!

Exactly a day before, I and my lover had an argument on a very silly thing, part of which was my fault.

I never ask professional favors in personal life, but that day I broke my rule and felt like asking a professional favor, maybe I always took her granted and felt she was my partner already! Or very close friend! So I was comfortable breaking my rules.

But I lied to her while asking the favor, saying the favor was for my friend and not for myself cause, I did not want her to know for multiple reasons, one if she knows she is helping me she might take it little personally and help push it harder which I did not want to happen. Secondly I do not want her to know that I may quit my current stable job and move to uncertain contracting which is a horrible past experience. For me, all that mattered was being with her as long as I can. 

So for these reasons, I want to keep it secret and I asked her managers id directly! I thought she might have told him, that I would send my resume directly to him. But I took for granted that his manager is comfortable taking resumes for external email ids with little introduction from her side. Either way! This gap lead to a strong argument where she was trying to teach me ethics!

That is when I went crazy! I am a project manager myself and I thought why is she has to tell me about ethics! She could have told what was supposed to be done. Cause I ask my friends directly to send resumes to me if there are opportunities. And I was very particular to draw a line saying "Savitri, this is professional favor" to ensure she does not mix personal life in that.

But the things went really wrong when she quoted the example from my past which I barely remembered and that was not necessary that point! We clearly discussed all this when we met in person that we will not talk or bring anything from the initial days when we were in love. As all the decisions, actions were so immature.

I told her that was not necessary and we ended conversation, but I was so much disturbed, I could not concentrate on my interview preparation next day! So I thought, the best thing to do is focus on my career and avoid any emotions which would impact my plan. I worked out in gym, than usual to get over that disturbance and was so tired. So I decided, we need time, we should just stop talking to each other! Till at least I know what my plan looks like!

And I left her voice mail and switched off cell as usual, the only thing I knew best and the only way to reduce my anger. I know, I will be normal again next day! But I have a weakness too, if someone is in person with me, I get melted by a hug or kiss! But as usual due to distance between us, that was not possible. I went to bed with these thoughts, to start a fresh day the next morning.

I woke up, looked eagerly at my voice mail, as she has this unique style of leaving long voice messages! Realizing there are none, I thought she felt very bad. Did not want to disturb her peace early morning, so left office by listening to her favorite "Telusa Telusa" song! I listened that song entire day in repeat mode! I realized I forgot to check WhatsApp messages. And I checked around noon as was in a war room with my managers first whole day. I left her text, she read it, but no reply! I waited looked back no reply!

I thought I will call her the moment I leave home! And on my way back too, I stopped my car and adjusted my cars Bluetooth which had some issues, so that I can listen to her favorite song. I reached home, I stepped out of car and there is little kid who was asking me if I need leather couch with her mother beside him, I thought she must have asked his son to initiate conversation! I laughed to self and thought I am leaving to India in few months! What do I do with my own furniture! And replied politely, no thanks with a smile and left to my room. I saw some green balloons! I thought some kids might have played with it and might have came over.

When I reached my door steps, 
This was there! As shown in picture!

I guessed it was Savitr’s act! But I was curious and read the note! As my roomie also has a girlfriend. And it was addressed Abhi Singh :)


I was feeling bad just this morning, I will miss my mustang when I go to India. But this gift! I have no words!

Words can be harsh, but gestures and actions speak even more! That day I realized, there is another person in this world who loves me! I felt I could climb Mount Everest now with her support!

Thanks to all those wonderful lovers in the world who made into history! I would one day want to know the entire world! In spite of all the differences and the horrible past we carry with each other! We still can be happy!

This memory now got added to my core memory as the happiest joyful moment when I saw this surprise combined with sadness that I miss her along with anger that we are far away and fear that, what if I had to leave her and go even farther?


For what all it may! I love you Savitr! I always did!

But I am scared just as you are! But I know for what little we know about each other we still can be happy together! We already know enough about each other! That "WE BOTH CARE FOR EACH OTHER".

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Be My Valentine

Can there be anything so happy giving when you are by me!
Can there be anything so warmth than your palms across my face!
A hug which could let me feel feather light!
A smile which lifts the whole universe with a fulcrum so curved!
Can there be anything?

Can there be anything so relentless when the thought of you not before me even for a second!
Can there be so pain inflicting my heart, if you are so sad about something!
A heart so filled you are!
A heart so dreams afar!
Can there be anything?

Can there be anything more graceful than your walk
Can there be anything so sweeter of your voice making me awake in middle of the night?
A voice so sweet I cant stop listening
A smile so infectious that i cant stop hearing!
Can there be anything?

Can there be anything I asked myself which I would ever stop doing to be far from U!
Can there be anything I asked self which I would ever not stop doing to love U!
A good bye I would never like to listen is from you!
A kiss on your forehead I would never stop doing
As you are my sweet heart and you are my first love


© Copyright Hari Babu P Feb 16 2013. This content cannot be used for any purpose except for pleasure of reading until and unless a prior authorization being obtained from the author.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Yes this is what I am .......


I am Mr.Darsy,
well that's not what I am
But does that really matter!? To spell the pride and prejudice of the self.....

Yes I am arrogant, If you may call stubborn most times,
Yes I am insane and so thoughtless
For the only one so harsh are the convictions to love so hidden inside this heart

Yes I care not thee feelings, if you may call hard as a stone yet times
Yes I am heartless and so a brute
For the only alter ego if existed would know I am so prudent and circumspect on words I choose

Yes I like to win word, if you may call egoistic yet times,
Yes I am taciturn and so speechless yet so to the contrary
For the only thing I care is you and rest seems so insignificant towards the love I have on you
Yes I dislike hiding, if you may call clear-cut
Yes I am shameless and have no virtues
For the only thing I mind is your smile even in my absence if that may take your pride by me

Yes I am like this, if you my call strong head
Yes I am this way I say
For the ways I had were closed in harsh ways unimaginable to your slightest thoughts that I had no heart left to get hurt a time one more

Yes I smile all time, if you may call mad all times,
Yes I am culprit of smile
For the lessons in life only taught me there's nothing in sorrow for Happiness is all we can carry with everyone

Yes I am Darsy in movies of "pride & prejudice", if you may a V in "V for Vendetta"
Yes I am Happy as they call me
But I still am Hari with heart ful of emotions yet so open but still so concealed.....

Happy Thanks Giving and bearing my nonsense this late midnight if u call me!!! Ciao!

~Hari (For all those who love me and hate me for reasons unfathomable in every aspect)


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Thursday, January 17, 2013

A bliss in the kiss



Some things in this world can only be felt and beyond anyone’s imagination to put in words. If anyone could define being happy, falling in love and hatred; I guess humans would never need a feel of expression to others. This blog is to all those who had experienced their first kiss and to those who are yet too! Happy read.

It was a painful day back from office; I still wonder why college was done so fast! Wish if I could go back to college again, it is just 6 months in IT (Information Technology) industry and I already miss it and realize how valuable was every moment when I had to think about my college days.
I still remember the final year of college and the date was Dec 26. 


Day:
It all started on the first day of fresher’s(new joiners) entering the college and we eagerly waiting with our claws open like an eagle to hunt down the prey of fresher’s. While our group is known and nick named as VAT ( a noun which is a big empty vessel)  for some reason which I still cannot accept cause we were never empty in anything but full in all! Some called us Anti-Girls race too, which is not a point of discussion right now so moving on.

While we were waiting at the Nandini café having samosa and waiting for the fresher’s to come out of college and me trying to snatch and throw away cigarettes from my friends hand, Hitesh trying to grap those last two pooris from Ranjith and others busy in their dramas; I see my friend’s father driving the same old Bajaj chetak making terrific sound as if a goods train is coming towards you with full volume on its siren but what caught amidst this big siren was a soft melody of violin music coming from his behind with bass, treble, stem and other musical notes
 emerging out of the moments of the dupatta from her salwar kameez by the swift breeze across her.


It occurred to me like a filmy style from top of my head but I just pushed those thoughts away with my left hand and trying hard to see her face which was covered by her silky hair so shiny and bright as a black cobra well sounds too poetic but better be or else how would you know I am a poet too!

I forgot to tell my friend that his father was coming as I was busy finding someone else on his father’s bike and my friend Rahul was still smoking, and guess what! The moment of triumph my friend was letting circles out of the cigarette smoke and was caught by his father, he did not know what to say and stood with the cigar still in his mouth like a frozen Buddha Statue in Hussain Sagar! I immediately pulled out the cigar from his mouth and went closer to the dustbin where his father’s bike was present put it there and finally looked at her!

Her eyes covered by a thin line of black color, lips as if rosy as newly born pink rose petals so pretty was she that I forgot that I was gazing at her! And she had to sigh that uncle was coming back then I smiled and said hi to uncle and he started speaking to me saying to educate his son and be like me!?
Be like me?! Oh god please never say that uncle I thought cause my father used to say same thing when Rahul comes to my home I uttered within myself and said sure Uncle and said bye!

I had to rush behind Rahuls father following his bike to see which group she belongs to and which section! I did not think I just followed my heart as always. I was shadowing her and came to know she is joining electronics stream which is my own stream! I was happy for some reason and left to café again.

My friends already could figure out what was happening. 


Day:

All of us had been waiting at the Nandini café again the next morning waiting for the freshers and I had caught Champak Lal, name itself sounded so good we could not stop pulling him in the middle of our circle , made him do break dance for an old sad classical, made him have navaratna breakfast (mixed all nine varieties of breakfast in hostel with hands mixing up chutney, curry, curd and sambar) and made him finish it off in 3 minutes then made him do sit ups! And finally took him for a sponsorship of movie tickets for nine of us to Guru Movie.

On way back from movie I saw her and asked Champak lal to tease her saying he is her senior or else we warned him we will make him have navaratna lunch this time! And so he went and I was following him without his notice, he started teasing her after a while I interfered saying Champak she is my relative leave her and I said lets go! Champak had this question and exclamatory on his face and just joined me with out a word.

I then asked Champak, did you ask her name he said yes.

I asked what is it? He said her name is Chinniben Patel

Chinni? What kind of a name on earth iswthat I thought but whatever it is, it is good I thought Chinniiiiii what a nice name! then I thought whats Ben? and I could hear my hidden voice now when you are in love even the most horrific name of the pretty girls sounds like an octave to you!!! I again pushed away my hidden voice with my right hand this time and I googled  her name to find meaning and which region in India is from and found out its something like girl  in gujarati, how sweet Chinni is Telugu language is cute and girl …cute girl! Nice meaning I laughed with in

I saw her coming behind us and she stood beside me and Champak on my left. I looked at her smiled and she smiled back and this happened till she boarded the bus, without my notice I left Champak and boarded her bus without seeing the bus number!

Its really hard to get seat in Hyderabad metro bus but somehow she got it that day and I just stood beside her, giving her company all the way till she got down and returned in the same bus again. Meanwhile my friend Hitesh was still waiting for me at bus stop and it was already an hour I left. So he started speaking to Champak whom I have deserted in the magic of Chinni.

Hitesh is always cool and did not complain about me letting him wait this long instead started smiling! Champak meanwhile left as his bus has come and I was asking Hitesh for the reason but he said I would not but will wait till you figure out yourself!
I still could not get it!


Day 21, Dec 26:
The same exchange of smiles since past 20 days and I do not know how to say I like her so much. Hitesh knowing what I had in my mind told “Abhi, today she has some dance program for the freshers day celebrations, you can meet her and spend some time with her in the theatrical room as she is practicing alone” I hugged Hitesh and said I shall call him once I give her company till her home and shall return to bus stop. He smiled and I went to our college dance practice room.

I saw her dancing and she was so good at it obviously I thought as I was told by my juniors that she knows Dandiya and does it very well. I wish if I knew something like that I thought but anyways she knows it I smiled with in.

She know I was watching her but she was so much into dance that she was not caring who is around. I was there till 5PM evening 4 hours extra and Hitesh dropped by to say he is leaving and I said stay with me he said idiot you better be alone! And left

After she was done she came to me and said how did I dance I said fantastic, she replied you always appreciate me! I said if you had to watch with my four eyes you would surely take my appreciation. She smiled for my quit wit of humor. I asked If I can join her for a walk she said yes. We were walking and she said she is feeling hungry and I asked we can go to Priya Restaurant and I asked if she likes spicy food she said yes, so I ordered Mirchi Bajji (An Andhra dish made with All gram flour and Green chillies deep fried)

She liked it so much and had 3 of them out of 5. I then asked her if she it so much she said thanks a lot for introducing it and I mentioned please do not ever be sorry or thanks to me and she smiled.
She asked if I know Champak I said yes he is my friend, she laughed and she said really? I said yes! Then she said so you have friends who are in first year apart from me! For a moment I was stuck then surprised then shocked and she smiled and so did I.

She then said I have never seen a person like you so witty, naughty and smiling all the time, I said that was something everyone says but its sweet to hear from you. It was dark already and I asked her I shall come along to drop her at home and she said of course I can. We were alone in the bus and I sat beside her and she asked me to look down as she felt something fell from my pocket so I had bent and she kissed me on my forehead while returning back.



For a moment I did not know what to say and react but I just smiled and had held her hand tight with mine and after getting down on the way to her home I called her name and she turned to me and I held her face in my palms and kissed her on forehead. For that moment it seemed the whole world has come to a halt with calmness around us, the place we were standing felt like the center of universe. I still could not forget the feeling of feather light on my lips on to her forehead and the immense bliss I had in heart!

My first kiss so wonderful and so sweet that I could ever forget in my life time.


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